House-Wife Sexuality

Real Masculinity inspires a woman's worship – without using force, violence and ignoring emotional needs.

What happened to me growing up. ? Raised as a feminist

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It would be nice if sex was look as a positive thing.Rather to promote sex in marriage and the blessings that abound from it and focus more on that. Rather than creating every reference or connotation to sex as negative. Every association with sex i had growing up was always negative negative NEGATIVE. SEX WAS BAD BAD BAD. All that was ever talked about was the negative effects of outside relations.

What i felt inside at the time… That went and goes against every truth discerning feelers that god implanted in me. I knew deep down without consciously knowing that this wasn’t true. The fact is that sex is beautiful, and glorious when done in the right boundaries and the men are more alpha keeping the woman wanting sex more than them,

Within the boundaries the lord has set. The truth is is that when they find themselves in a situation unintended. When those feelings are being aroused they will think as i did. This feels great. Everyone is wrong. How beautiful.

My father twiced divorced. Never did anyone sat down and show me the pros or cons of marital or premarital relationship. All i knew that SEX IS BAD,,,,,PERIOD. If I even heard the word sex; i immediately started feeling anxiety confusion and bad feelings. When I was around boys I was confused or even felt guilty for having any sexual feelings or arousal. I how to interact with the opposite sex. Which was highly frustrating. These issues Probably occured because all 3 adults suffered bad sex lifes and both women were huge feminists. My dad was hugely sex whipped and out of the bedroom whipped. Sex can not be enjoyable for either partners when the man is whipped out or in the bedroom,

Sex needs to be talked about more POSITIVELY. What happens when a woman keeps her virtue and chastity. AND encourage young marriage! Also have special support places for divorced parent children. What will men think OF HER when she DOES keep her chastity, virtue and submissiveness. How they (the men) will like her and DESIRE TO POSSESS HER, TO KEEP HER SAFE, PROTECTED AND LEAD. I was pushed in the negative direction because there were no other answers EVERYTHING WAS BAD BAD BAD. I had no other ways to find out about the truth of relationships and sex except through unfortunate experience. As soon as my parents divorced at 7 i became promiscuous. 7!!! Children don’t understand CONSCIOUSLY THE VOID OR THE DESIRE TO BE POSSESSED BY A MASTER. I had no power left. My security was destroyed. All i knew was that sexuality was my weapon. My father barely existed. IF he was home we watched movies. Or i was usually left to my own devices. I wander the neighborhood. Seeking companionship understanding, comfort. I had NO ONE to look after me after the years of divorce, I was my own master. I occasionally went peoples houses that were designated by father. Thank goodness the lord protected me until i was 17. He was still protecting me from 17-23. When my real promiscuity happened. Then i FINALLY GOT MARRIED. Looking back this was all i wanted to be owned, dominated, possessed and lead. And ultimately desired.

We need more Positivity in the world. If no one knows what “THE LIGHT” looks like. How can they walk towards it. All they know is what the darkness looks like and there only hope is to go through the darkness to find the light. Cause only in the dark can you see the stars. The stars aren’t bright enough. But, at least they have glimmer of something better to hope for or believe in, But even in the dark with the stars It’s easy to get lost if there is no clear, bright and alluring picture of how saving themselves for sex in marriage, and submission is going to bring them freedom.

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